LYM

Sudden loss is terrible. I feel like you were stolen from me. Even though I knew each day on the scooter could be your last, I was still not prepared for it to actually happen. I didn't get to say good-bye and I love you. But, actually we said good-bye and I love you every night. Every single night. I knew how you felt about me, and I know you knew how I felt about you. I look around our home and see your touch everywhere. I was so blessed to have you in my life for so long. Thank-you, Russell. As you always said, LYM.

Poco

When you sent me the picture of Poco from the Start Over Rover website, of course I said yes! He looked so much like our Utah we had to have him. He has been such a funny dog, made us laugh and laugh and laugh. And now without you, he is good company for me. I was just laughing at him with the new tennis ball I got for him. Batting it around a bit, watching it roll, and then leaving it and attacking his plastic bone. And you know he never lasts long at playtime, so he is now sacked out, with his nose on the rooster I got for him for Christmas. You would be laughing with me at his antics. Three weeks today, Russ. I miss you so much.

Rollercoaster

So, seriously, I find myself wanting to talk to mom more than anyone about the loss of Russ. Mom has been gone for two years. One solace I have is that Russ stopped at Ft. McPherson to "visit" mom before starting out again on his scooter. I know that he enjoyed the visit, and enjoyed the solace that Ft. McPherson brings. And I am riding the rollercoaster of emotions. Up and down, round and round. Yes, I know I am not alone in losing a husband. And I also know that Russ now has perfect peace and rest, but that doesn't mean I miss him any less. He was a great guy and we had many adventures. I hope his adventures are continuing...